This isn't really a self-portrait but it is a portrait of my emotional state on that day. The news has been especially bleak recently. I am more distressed and worried over the lack of news about the Gulf of Mexico oil disaster than I was when news was gushing out at us in the weeks before. Why is there a media blackout on one of the worst environmental disasters in memory?
Of course there are personal worries too. I always have them. Much more so since becoming a parent. I now have two other people to worry about constantly.
I am lucky in so many ways. One of my blessings is that I have an over capacity of optimism that never disappears for long. So even though on the day that I drew this picture with pastels on toned paper I was feeling particularly awash with helpless, negative feelings, today I am feeling sunnier.
It does help that after days of rain the clouds broke today and the house lost it's chilly damp feel, at least for a while. When I got the kids up to go to camp the sun was low on the horizon and shining towards the mountains, where it created a dazzling rainbow. The first time I've seen an early morning rainbow. I hope it was a sign of good things to come.